Jesselle Elizabeth

Our little princess just turned 4 on January 21st!! Jesselle is very strong willed and opinionated, I try to look at these qualities as a glance of the future...she doesn't take nonsense from anyone, when she wants something she WILL get it, by all means!! and she, like me gets annoyed and bored with others quickly. Besides the whole annoyance she has with others, we think those are great qualities to make a successful adult...we hope :) She is also super competitive. Troy and her race when they eat, get dressed, get buckled, and anything else you can possibly imagine! Have I mentioned her ear piercing screams?!? We can all thank GOD these have almost become non-existent. We have been together almost everyday of her life, when she enters Kindergarten in a year and a half... I am deathly afraid she is going to beat some kid up in school or possibly tell her teacher off, oh my please pray for us! I take a deep breath now and try to absorb every moment we have with each other. She maybe difficult and it may feel like she has the energy as a set of twins but she can also be a very loving person. She loves to give compliments and say "hi" to everyone. She always manages to make friends with kids her age and some adults everywhere we go. I have noticed she gets along better with kids older than her, little kids who cannot communicate with her...she will walk away from them rolling her eyes saying "geez"!! Then there is her comedian side..LOL she has the funniest sense of humor and very contagious laugh. Every night she likes to cuddle and fall asleep on my lap, I am holding on to this one for as long as possible. Kids grow up so fast and all of a sudden you realize they are becoming people!! Don't you just want to bottle them up and keep them little forever?!?

Just Dance

This week I realized what it really means to stand up and to be true to myself! This week I experienced a 7 to one verbal attack when I had least expected it! I went into the evening prepared with exactly what I wanted to say and accomplish, but unfortunately it was a one way conversation, more like a monologue in front of twenty people. Leaving the room thinking it was a waste of everyone's time, I went ahead and did my job, the job I came there to do. The laughter and fun came to a screeching halt, when he came down and told me they wanted to talk to me. I walked in and shut the door and said,"OK what's up?", then it started. I tried to remain as composed as possible, I had no clue how to react. I felt I had to yet again prove myself to these people who have been after me since I started. On what foundation have I been accused of being this horrible person? Lies, all lies! How boring is your life that you need to make up lies and half truths to make yourself look better. The tears were flowing on the other end, but what were the tears coming from? Lies. Once the yelling and attempt to break my spirit stopped I excused myself, I was DONE! Done dealing with people who just don't get it! I walked to my Jeep and fought to hold back the tears, I called my Best Friend, My Husband. He helped me calm myself and make it home safely. Here I am three days later, involuntarily playing back the horrible things that were said. Where do I go from here? As long as I could remember I have always been misunderstood. People trying to mold this person they think I should be...guess what I am loud, I say things I shouldn't, I like to laugh, I love to have fun, and I will not continue to be attacked!........JUST DANCE